Wow I  just realized that I still have this blog. I guess I should update it. Evangeline is a healthy thriving 2 year old now she is already starting to read and use big words she is such a little sponge picking up everything with such ease. As for David and myself we are separated for the most part but still living together in separate rooms. We will be filing for divorce after the new year and once our lease is up at our apartment he will be moving back home to Georgia. We already sold our old home we had a few months ago which was a relief to us both we hated that house with a mutual passion. Personally for me things lately have been chaos. I'm feeling so suffocated with my feelings.  Luckily there are a few select people in my life that bring me happiness they know who they are.  When I'm staring into the dark abyss ready to surrender they keep bringing me back kicking and screaming. For that I'm thankful. It's not until you are staring at your demons in the face do you understand yourself. I have many and I cannot continue to let them swallow me whole so now is the time for a life cleansing journey into healing. I can't be the mother I want to be for Eva if I continue to let others be a drain on my life force.  I'll be starting school in January for deaf education which I'm scared to death of yet thrilled at the new adventure. I'm hoping after my divorce to be able to obtain health insurance because I'm going to need it in order to get my worsening autoimmune disease under control because it has been getting so much worse. I need to sleep allot but cannot seem to be able to due to insomnia. Another side effect is that I'm freezing all the time which anyone who knows me knows I love the cold and snow like no other but this is ridiculous I freeze even in my 70 plus degree house with the heater going. I'm feeling really stressed about it considering how deadly it could be if left untreated for too long. It will be fine though once I can make changes that are past due.

I'm just beyond done with allot of things and I'm ready to move forward.